My Spiritual Path

For those of you who don't know, I've been learning as much as I can about ISKCON (International Society for Krishna Consciousness).  I've been fascinated by the religion since finding out that's the religion my boyfriend belongs to.  He's been helping me learn so much; reading the Bhagavad-Gita together once a week, going to the ISKCON temple, even just listening to him tell me stories of various events that happened to Krishna...  I just eat all this up.  There are some things I don't quite understand.  There are some aspects of the Ayurvedic medical practices that I don't understand, but I'm enjoying embracing all the new things my boyfriend teaches me.  I've actually been contemplating joining the religion, myself.  A few weeks ago, I had this really vivid dream that we decided was a dream about the religion, and about its leader, Srila Prabhupada.  Lately, I've really been thinking a lot about the various aspects of the religion.  I'm a little unsure about what I want to do, however.  A part of me feels...unworthy, to an extent.  I feel I have the capability to do what it takes to be a part of the community, but, I guess I always feel this way when I want to join in something.  I feel scared that I won't be welcome, or that I'll be taken as a joke.  To be perfectly honest, I've had a long streak of not really knowing where I stand spiritually.  I haven't really found a religion that I feel would be a good fit for me.  But I actually like how inclusive and how accepting ISKCON seems to be, from what I've been learning about it.  They seem inclusive of all types of people, and they seem to be pretty progressive.  The people at my boyfriend's temple seem so inviting and so kind.  I'm not really sure how I can go about getting more involved in the religion.  You know, to sort of test the waters as I go along.  I figure maybe attending a Kirtan (which is basically where a group of devotees come together to sing and dance and play instruments to celebrate Krishna), or something like that, might be a good next step.  

Anyway, I feel I'm about to start rambling here in a bit, so I guess I should end my post here.  I really am grateful to my sweetie for being so patient and teaching me all these neat things about his religion and about Krishna.  He's the best!!!  <3